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Being home is going well, minus the sleep and hungry cycles being all mixed up. Oh and did I mention I have panic attacks all the time when I wake up ? it is not cool. Since I have gotten home I have been busy re-arranging my life. I have been looking for apartments, figuring out school and getting my london schedule re-adjusted.  All this is rather stressful, but after last week I think I can take on a lot more now. - hopefully- One plus of being home is I have more food choices and all my personal freedoms back. I do miss Korea, at least the part that I was on. Wando is a beautiful island, however the circumstances in which I was there were not so magical. 

Good Bye Korea

hello Family, friends , ppl who may read this,

I am at the icheon airport, getting ready to go home at last.

Some may not understand my decision to go home but this is the best decision for me. 

I was very overwhelmed by the quarantine situation, and I am emotionally drained. 

I just couldnt handle being on at the mercy of the camp coordinators and the every changing schedules and not knowing my fate. I hope that the people who decided to stay in South Korea enjoy their time and teaching the kids. I just lost my joy that I had at the beginning, it was like a balloon that popped. I just don't really know quite how to explain it. I have never in my life given up so much of my personal control and to tell you the truth I will never give up that much of my personal freedom again. It was incredibly scary. I didn't enjoy being put up in a gross building either. I was a volunteer who had to go through medical checks, wearing health masks and then take meds, for something I didnt even have. It is so surreal looking at it now. I am so thankful to the people who were there me to talk to and support me. Please understand though I dont have any hard feelings toward Korea or Koreans. I dont blame them for any of this. Korea is a beautiful country and the people are very kind to everyone. They are probably the sweetest and most accomadating people ever.  For me to feel normal and happy and at peace with myself though I need to go home. Try to understand. Please. so farwell Korea keep people sweating and looking at your beautiful seaweed.